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（五月廿九日） 　　Indeed I have been drifting—farther and farther away from my main purpose. Not without a plausible pretext perhaps, —that is the worst of it. I have long needed a steersman who can set me on the right course. Yet so far no one, except you, has been able to give me what I am surely in need of. For a time I began to see dimly through mine own eyes this drifting, and was alarmed by it. And then this Sino-Japanese Crisis upset the whole thing and once more I found excuses for my irrelevant activities. 　　You have been very kind. You have done me a great deal of good. I have now determined to live up to what you said to me yesterday… 　　So much for idle wishing—how 　　It steals the time! To business now! 　　To business now! 　　〔中譯〕 　　實際上，吾有點放任自流——正日漸遠離吾之主要目標。也許，這主要該歸於，吾總會找一個似乎言之有理之藉口，——這是最為糟糕的。吾早就需要一位「舵手」，他能指明方向，使吾沿著正確之航線前進。然而，迄今為止，除足下之外，還沒有人能給予吾如此之幫助，而這正是吾之所極需的。曾經有一段時間，吾自己開始朦朦朧朧地意識到，吾之所作所為似在放任自流。這使吾驚恐不已。可是，此次中日危機把一切都攪亂了，吾再一次為自己開脫，為吾所幹的與吾之志向不相干之活動找到了藉口。 　　足下為人友善，助人為樂，為吾做了許多于吾有益之事。此刻，吾已下定決心，當按昨日足下告吾之良言行事…… 　　一度沉溺於癡心妄想， 　　蹉跎了多少美妙之歲月！ 　　現在趕快動手！ 　　現在趕快動手！

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